Letters to Lyla and Lottie

Just wanted to say thanks to all of you for your kind words of support. I didn't think anyone would be too interested in the story so thank you all for being so concerned about me...I feel so very loved. The truth is, its been almost two weeks now and I know pretty much nothing. I've had an echocardiogram (ultrasound of the heart that is really quite creepy) and had a halter monitor for 24 hours (which sucked by the way). Basically, they said overall my heart is in good condition. I don't have enlarged valves (which would otherwise mean just put your name on the transplant list) and I don't have any other major problems that would warrant surgery (which is funny because the thought of having surgery never even crossed my mind-ignorance is bliss I guess). It also doesn't look like I have any clots. So really the only problem is that my heart rhythm is a little crazy and a little scary. It basically has one normal beat, one really fast beat, then one really slow beat, then one really overcompensated beep (bc too much blood has pooled from the slow beat) and then the process repeats in a really regular way. I meet with a cardiologist next Monday so we'll see what he has to say. This big question to me is why all the sudden this happened? If I've supposedly had this crazy beat all my like (which many providers over the years have recognized) why did it act up just that once? And, what's going to keep it from doing that again? My guess is this specialist is going to say he's not worried-that my heart is irregular but that it is okay to live with. Not too optimistic about getting tons of answers but I'm kind of okay with that--I feel completely fine. That's all I know for now. Thanks again everyone!!!