welcome to my internet home. this blog used to be cool, with insights about mental health, social policy, pop culture and the like. now, it's a chaotic collection of my mis-spelled, scribbled-down notes on motherhood (who has time to proof read?). it's over-ran with goldfish cracker crumbles, slobery wet kisses, and un-edited pictures. and i would have it no other way. feel free to laugh and cry along side me while I balance a practice (mental heath) and motherhood, and their interconectedness

Tuesday, May 27, 2008


So we've been "moved" now for going on five days. I say "moved" because we're definitely not settled in yet. I'd say we have about half of our things unpacked with the major things left being the entertainment center and most of our bedroom stuff. The major set back is that I'm insisting on painting and touching up a bunch of things before we assemble them etc. It seems that most things survived the move. The only casualty? My new red sectional. It won't fit down the stairs. They will remain in the garage until we move. I cried and am still not over it. As far as the adjusting thing... it's going pretty okay. I definitely have had some existential crisis over returning to my home town. I cringe each time I see an old high school buddy or what have you. I don't know what my deal is. I feel like I'm in a giant fish bowl 24-7. I am too. I see everyone and their dog everywhere I go. I also think it's been a bit odd for Todd living essentially with my family. All in all, though, it's been pretty good. It's been really great seeing my family so much and my sister has really welcomed us into their house. Also, our apt is ginourmous compared to our old apt. That rocks. Todd started his job today and thinks he will really like the work. However, he got word today that he may have to spend nights away from home on certain jobs...that was definitely a huge bummer and we're not quite ready to acknowledge that. Despite that, he has every Friday off and we look forward to some good summer trips.

I guess the take-home message is that, like most things, the move has been a mixed bag with the goods mostly outweighing the bads.

Moving was such a bugger. Due to scheduling conflicts and lack of planning Todd and I packed and loaded the majority of our things, including the giant sectional all by ourselves (I felt pretty buff after)
***this is only one portion of the crap***.

I never realized how much crap we had until we filled Todd's truck, my car and a mid-sized U-haul full of junk. Man I need to become a minimalist bc that was pathetic! I've never been so bloody tired.

Other random note: around Grad time my sister surprised us with a night's stay at a condo in Jeremy Ranch. It was so stinkin fun! We got food to go and watched AI. Then we just stared at our amazing view! For Mother's Day we visited Todd's mom and fam. It was such a nice getaway and was really fun to spend the time with his family. It was however, kinda sad bc we felt like we were saying goodbye. We'll miss being able to zip up and visit! Ty loves his grandma

Until next time!

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Today may be one of the greatest days of my life. Okay, maybe I'm overstepping myself a bit but I am just so relieved, elated, and utterly ecstatic to share with you all that I PASSED MY LICENSURE EXAM TODAY!!! I didn't tell anyone I was taking it (except Todd and some of my SW buddies) for fear that I wouldn't pass it, so if I've been ignoring your calls or just acting a little ornery towards you in the last little while that's why! I've really been so super crazy the last three weeks trying to study and prepare to move. I'm not sure if I've ever had so much anxiety! Driving to the test I thought for sure I would pass out or at least throw up, but I survived! All four hours of thinking my life was over. I thought for sure I hadn't passed, but I did with a 78 which doesn't sound that good but it actually is pretty good. Phew. It will be so nice not to have to make a separate trip up here for the exam and to just enjoy the summer without worrying about studying, etc. Ah, I'm so pumped. Hallelujah.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008


We finally have some concrete plans for the next little while (we don't like anything too permanent)....we've decided to move to my hometown, Cedar City. Todd was offered the Forest Service Job he applied for several months ago. We had convinced ourselves it was a no go since we didn't hear anything too promising for sooo long, but then we got official word last week that it was a go. The job is too good to turn down and I can work at my job anywhere that has an Internet connection. Plus, we will be living in my sister's basement apt for dirt cheap. The plan is to do that for awhile to save money for a house. Another pro is obviously being close to my family...especially because Jenny will be having a baby while we're there! The cons? We have to be there in two weeks! I was planning to take the licensure exam in two weeks, which makes life REALLY stressful...in fact, I'm currently diagnosing myself with some type of anxiety disorder to practice for the test. Wrapping up everything here, packing, and studying and taking the exam may not all happen, but I trust that it will all work out. Here's to living in two states and four cities in less than two years! Cheers!

Saturday, May 3, 2008


So the day finally arrived! Graduation went off without a hitch. While it was nice to have a physical and symbolic ending to the last two years, the nicest part about graduation was being reminded of what a loving and supportive family I have. My family and Todd's family drove a great length to watch something that can't be that scintillating. I was especially touched that Todd' mom drove clear from Idaho in just one day after being sick...just for me! It was just great to see how much support I have and to spend the day with everyone. We had a graduation lunch at Mimi's that afternoon, which was lovely. It was also wonderful to be with my friends from the program and to celebrate with them. I've said it enough but they're really great! The ceremony itself was just okay. Not too long at least! That part didn't really matter too much to me anyway. Now that its all said and done I'm happy I walked....ya happy mom!?! So..thank-you to everyone and especially to my honey...he really has held me up the last two years.