welcome to my internet home. this blog used to be cool, with insights about mental health, social policy, pop culture and the like. now, it's a chaotic collection of my mis-spelled, scribbled-down notes on motherhood (who has time to proof read?). it's over-ran with goldfish cracker crumbles, slobery wet kisses, and un-edited pictures. and i would have it no other way. feel free to laugh and cry along side me while I balance a practice (mental heath) and motherhood, and their interconectedness

Monday, November 30, 2009

If you love her....

Vote for her!
Lyla is in a photo contest.
Send and email to:
Saying you want to vote for #9!!!
Go
To see the contestants (I think you might also be able to leave a comment on the post with your vote)
Lyla will thank you by wearing something especially cute from this online store.
(Thanks Auntie Brooke, again, for the Tutu)

Monday, November 23, 2009

2 months...in pictures

$100 bucks later the computer is out of the shop and working like new. Lyla survived her shots and actually took it better than I expected; she cried harder when I handed her over to the doctor than she did getting poked. There was someone interning so then both gave her a shot at the same time so I think that helped. She weighed in at 9.5 lbs...creepin up on the 10th percentile. Woot woot (we take successses where we can get them). Her length is 21.5 inches which I beleive was somewhere in the 20th percentile. She's offically outgrown her newborn clothing (that go up to 8 lbs) and has moved on to size 1 diapers. Both were tough transitions for me and I still haven't been able to take her newborn clothing off the hangers. Someday.... Here's, yet another overkill, on photos.

The definition of skill-sucking on my first AND shaking the rattle and the SAME time.
Good thing (for now) that I get my feet from my dad cuz I can wear big girl shoes now!
My ouchies..and chunky legs :)



Mom wasn't jokin about my lashes
Now over powering the bear

I always thought it was gross when people posted poop pictures-like really? But I had to demonstrate the epic nature of her blow outs.
I now very much enjoy my bouncer when it vibrates


Off to church for the first time. Even though mom fed me right before we left, I still felt as though I needed to breastfeed twice and of course poop twice.
My Sunday best

What happens when dad dresses me....on backwards. Good greif.
My play mat! Love looking in the mirror (what? can ya blame me?)
Lookin intently





Yea, I make cheesy tourist shirts look good
Check out my mouse shoes



Thursday, November 19, 2009

2 months

I won't belabor that whole, "Whaah, she is growing too fast" thing because it's getting old but not any less sad and true. Lyla is officially two months and faces the big, horrible, scary shots tomorrow. Last weigh in was at 6 weeks where she weighed 7lbs 10oz. We'll see tom. but I think she's gained QUITE a big.
Here's some things about her this month....
  • She can see at greater distances which includes from the couch to the tv! This is a problem for me because I tell her she's only allowed to watch 30 mins of TV a day but she disobeys! If it's on, she's watchin.
  • She does this funny thing with her hands when she's sleeping. It's like she's revving a motorcycle.
  • She has grown very thick and long eyelashes (didn't get that from me!)
  • She coes now when she smiles and almost giggles
  • Her hair is kinda falling out (has a few bald spots)
  • Her hand-eye coordination is scarily good. She has this playmat thing with different things that make noise, etc. She grabs right on with interest. She also enjoys pulling out her dad's chest hair and pulling on my shirt while she eats.
  • The other day in the early morning she grabbed on to my garments and rubbed the silkiness on her face.
  • At 8 weeks she rolled over. No lie. I lied her on her back on her playmat, walked 2 feet to grab the camera, turned back around, and she was on her tummy. Freaked me right out.
  • She has become a spoiled breast feeder. If my let down isn't immediate she throws a mini tantrum. It's funny.
  • She is alert and awake most the day and enjoys looking around at things.
  • She is sleeping much better-with about a 5 hour stint at night. Feeding in bed laying down has been a godsend. It allows me to snuggle her and dose while she eats.
  • She LOVES riding in the baby byorn (presumably because it allows her to be upright, helping with the reflux). I do all my cleaning and computer work with her in it. Lately she's been riding face out and she looks about at different eye-catching things.
  • She has taste discrimination. Her reflux meds are bubble gum flavored and she laps that stuff up! Her vitamins are butt flavored (like really bad-you can smell it across the room) and she spits it out!
  • She is discovering her tongue. It's like she's not sure what that big messy thing is in her mouth. She smacks and sucks on it slobbering profusely in the process.
  • She understands and recognizes the feeding trough and gets excited and pants when she sees it.
  • She has had two bottles from dad (with me watching like a left-out middle schooler from across the room) and she loved them...but was a little miffed about the easy flow of the bottle (i.e. milk squirted all over her face).
  • The other day she manged to get poop up to her shoulder blades.
  • She enjoys her bath like a high society woman enjoys the spa. We have an facet that detaches so I put her bath on the counter and have warm running water the whole time she bathes. She stretches out, closes her eyes, and looks completely content.
  • She has porked out a bit. Her thighs have major rolls and her knees have dimples.

Mostly she is constantly developing and evolving. It's almost impossible to keep up. I love her so much my heart physically aches at times when I look at her. On another note, I have absolutely loved watching her relationship grow with dad. He has already informed her that she can't get married until she's 30. He tells her all the need-to-know BYU sports trivia and speaks to her like she is 15. I always thought I would be the push over and Todd would have to be the disciplinarian, but I was sorely wrong I think. When he dressed her the other night he sneakily left her mittens off (the mittens I make her wear religiously) because "she doesn't like them". He prolongs diaper changes because "they stress her out" (perhaps that one is just a ploy to get out of changing though!) and habitually takes off her bow the minute he sees her because "they bug her". I think we're in trouble because we're clearly....

Head over Heels

Pictures to come. Laptop is in the shop.

Friday, November 13, 2009

In all their glory

Here's *some* of the beautiful newborn pictures we had taken. You've probably seen most of them from the blog I referenced (and now the pictures on the side of our blog) but some are new. There were so many good ones to choose from it was ridiculous.





















Sunday, November 8, 2009

Mommydom Unplugged

In the initial days after having Lyla I kept wondering when I would actually feel like a mom. It's like I wanted some grand expression or sign from the universe to come down and certify me as a mom. It was weird. I would sometimes wake up and look at her and think holy crap...that's my kid. I have a daughter. Sometimes the disassociation would be so strong I would have a panic moment thinking I hadn't felt her kick in a while...then remember that's because she's in my damn arms not my stomach anymore! I've thought a lot about what makes you a mom.
SO I ask you, are you officially a new mom if.....

  • You wake soaking wet and can't decided if it's from sweat (because the thermostat now rests at a reasonable 80 degrees), drool, or if it's just an untimely little expression from those lovely little humps that used to be sexual... not share a purpose with a freaking milk cow.
  • Your greatest achievement of the day is honing in on the perfect oxyclean to spray N wash ratio for removing the stubbornest of blow outs
  • Your night stand that used to hold expensive lotions, books of intellect, and dare I say, *nightime items* have been replaced with diapering essentials, an extra pj in the unfortunate case of a nightime blowout, butt paste, books with titles like, "the baby whisperer" and the remains of an umbilical cord (shameful, but true).
  • You've grown accustomed to things leaking from every single oraphus (sp?) in your body. If you're wondering what comes out the rear you've obviously never experienced something that starts with a hem and ends in a ROID.
  • You don't make it through the shower without poking your head out at least once to listen for crying'
  • Time lacks no meaning except to mark the space between feedings and the number of weeks since birth.
  • You are shocked when you hear about the weather because you haven't been outside in days.
  • the color and/or texture of the latest dump makes scintillating dinnertime conversations
  • The only math you do is to measure out MLs of medicine, note the most recent weigh in, and of course, to count the number of poopy and wet diapers made in a day.
  • The term sex now only has one definition: male or female.

....you get the point.

It's a wild, beautiful, amazing ride

Saturday, November 7, 2009

Lyla wanted to wish everyone a Happy Halloween. She quite enjoyed her first holiday. I've always loved Halloween but I'm starting to see how every Holiday is going to be that much more fun with her around. As the cutest spotted Leopard ever, she did some trick or treating (snuggled in the baby bjorn)with her cousins (Elsie, as Ariel with legs [her idea] and Addy as Sebastian the crab), her Aunt Jenny (as Ursula) and Grammy (as a scare crow). Lyla also enjoyed an evening at grammys playing games and watching us eat homemade donuts (that were worth every dimple on my behind). She would like to thank her Auntie Brooke for the amazingly cute costume. Here's some photos.
Our First Halloween as a Threesome Lovin the Baby Bjorn
The Crew (minus Todd)
Her makeup pretty much only stayed on for one minute due to her need to suck on her binky constantly I forget to look at the camera!
Lovin our little pumpkin patch
Really? You're gonna make me stay propped up like this?

Dad lovin the Leopard
See my Tail?
Yeah, I make spots look good
Happy Halloween!!!!!!

Monday, November 2, 2009

The weekend of October 24th we went to Provo so that Todd could go to the TCU-BYU game and so that Lyla could meet more of the Gambles Fam. Todd's mom rented an apartment and his brother Brad and his family and Scott and Shauna came down. We had such a great time with everybody and Lyla of course loved being the center of attention (she kept hammin it up with her little smiles). The only downside was the result of the game but what can you do? At least it got a bunch of us together!
Sending Dad off....
Making BYU look good (they need all the help they can get right now!)Studyin Grammy.... Smiles for Grammy
Other Random Photos...



Remember the last photo like this?! She was smaller than the bear. Boo hoo.
Tummy Time!
The Afro I gave her(poor thing)
It only took me a month to decide I could stop holding her for a bit and put her in the swing. She loves it
When ever you see photos of her in these little t-shirts it's because she's pooped through at least two pajama sleep sacks and I've decided enough is enough
Her eyes look so much a like mine is picture it's freaky

Pumpkin Patch Time!
Lovin being snuggled in the sling
A baby pumpkin for baby Lyla

And Drum roll....on this day....

I caught a real smile on camera...YAY!That's that in the way of photographic updates. About two weeks ago we discovered that Lyla has acid reflux which is the reason she doesn't sleep so well. I finally decided I didn't care if I looked like a paranoid/hysterical mom and took her in. We now have medicine and I continue to try out different places for her to sleep that allow her to be propped up. We've tried the car seat, the boppy, the pack n play, and the bouncer chair. So far the boppy is the winner. I've also instituted a nightly routine including a bath and lights out. For a week and half it seemed that the combination of these things were really working. She really slept at night and would go up to 5 hours at a time. I felt like a new woman and had a really positive outlook on becoming human again (as opposed to the vampire-esq lifestyle we lived before). Unfortunately, the last four days we have regressed back to when sleep at night was theoretical. I've tried it all..swaddling etc. and nothing seems to work. I'm hoping it's just that 6-week growth spurt and that things will settle back in.
I love and cherish every day I get to spend with her though well slept or not. She's just so fun. She smiles a lot these days and loves to be cuddled on any one's chest (presumably because being propped up helps with the reflux). My favorite time is in the early morning when Todd leaves for work and I let her stay in bed with me after feeding her (love breast feeding laying down) and we fall asleep with her in my arms. Love waking up next to her. I also love on the weekends when Todd wakes up while I'm feeding her and says "I think she needs to cuddle in bed for awhile". We feel pretty special that she's ours :)