Letters to Lyla and Lottie

Its official. The Man has safely returned from his 3-month hiatus and now rests securely where he has always been; on my back. In other words, I got a job!! When I originally envisioned making this post i thought it would be with melancholy and longing for my care-free days of working mid-time (mid-time: word I make up for not part time but not full time), but the road to employment has been so much harder and disappointing than I expected that I couldn't be more excited, happy and relieved to be gainfully employed. I don't know if its a function of the economy, time of year (summer=less psychosis=bad for me) or what but there has literally been NO jobs for me in S. Utah over the last three months of looking. I can safely say there was at best 15 jobs posted that even remotely applied to me in three months-which is NOTHING like the job market in SLC. It has been so frustrating. I looked at every job posting site there is, contacted facilities I would like to work at, even swallowed my pride and used my dad's "good old boy network" to drudge something up and was still so unsuccessful for so long. I guess the market is more condensed here bc so many jobs I heard about were filled before they were publicly posted. I only got two interviews and was offered the second position-the one I was really hoping to get. Shout out to Jenn who told me about the job- she found it one day in the Trib of all places. Thanks for looking out for me! You're the best!!!

It feels so good to have security and to not have to think about all the applications, interviews etc. anymore. Applying for professional jobs SUCKS!!! You have to individualize every resume for each job, write a cover letter, get letters of rec, have references on hand, attend at least two interviews per job, and some on top on that want detailed Vita's etc. It's so exhausting! I was sooo relieved when I got the offer. I felt really good about the interview--but it was really intense. It was a panel interview-members included the director of DCFS, the director of the District Attorney's office, an x-polygamist woman, and then people from the Family Support Center (this will make sense it a minute).

I'm not one to air my dirty laundry but I have really had a hard time this summer. There's more to the story but it was just hard for me to work so little and be HOME all the time. I always had projects and things to do but I've learned that I'm really not one who enjoys relaxing all that much. I don't know whats wrong with me but I just felt like CRAP not having a regular 9-5er. I guess I derive a lot of self worth out of wanting to contribute. Everyone is like that right? It has made me question the whole "stay at home mom" gig. DO NOT get me wrong-I anticipate motherhood being as hard or more hard than working-but what if I go crasy? I've thought a lot about my drive to live by The Man and I don't think its as much about making money so that we can have nice things-I'm really not that driven by wanting a house or a nice car or whatever. I think its about security and not wasting any opportunity to be ahead. This whole summer all I saw was dollar signs wasting away. I'm on a tangent now but basically, I've got issues and I'm really happy to be working again.

About the job. It's with The Family Support Center (FSC) out of Salt Lake. You can check them out here. Their mission statement...