Letters to Lyla and Lottie

Some of my friend's have posted an 100-things-about me list and I like the idea bc it's a good journal reference. I realize this probably isn't terribly interesting to you all but its good for me to remind myself where i'm at at this moment.



1) I am dreading going back to school, but i'm also dreading graduating bc that means I'm officially a professional



2) Less than three years ago I was a man-hating independent woman who planned to move to a large city, work as a psychologist, and never marry.



3) I believe with every ounce of me that I made the better choice




4) my thoughts went from careers, money and success to recipes, house work and children (not exclusively of course!).




5) I believe that every person should be required to take a class on white privilege




6) I am a socialist, liberal in a Republicans clothing




7) I am grateful to my mother for forcing me to take Violin lessons. I now love playing and wished I played more often.




8) One of my dreams is to move to a remote cabin in the woods for a year and write a novel.




9) I would like to have a book published




10) I am in the process of getting published in two different scholarly articles




11) I am fully a research nerd. I not only work as one, but I get pleasure out of it




12) I intellectualize everything. I can't buy a car, take a vacation, or really do anything without researching the hell of it.




13) Sometimes I wish I could be less calculating when I want to do stuff




14) I wish i was more business minded; I 've been reading a bunch lately about IRA's, HSA, and money markets but I still feel overwhelmed and hope I've made good financial choices thus far.




15) I'm a terribly anxious person...the things I worry about are often insane. Sometimes I think that if Todd and I switched brains for a day I would be in heaven and he would have to be institutionalized...I can be so exhausting




16) I'm coming to terms with the fact that I am a bit of a perfectionist




17) My friends liken me to Summer from School of Rock




18) My favorite movie is As Good As it Gets; nothing beats that dialogue




19) I also LOVE Goodwill Hunting



20) I have an addictive relationship with music, I feel it tangibly; like most people feel things physically


21) I want to be a foster parent some day.



22) My dream is to settle in this cute little town outside Logan. It's called Wellsville.



23) I plan to open a private practice someday specializing in body politics, anxiety disorders, and possibly martial counseling.



24) My goal is to be full time mom and do some therapy on the side.



25)Tiny spicy chicken from Mandarin Garden in Logan is my favorite thing to eat on this planet



26)I love the movie, Stranger than Fiction



27) I really want a Mini-horse; I plan to have one for each of my children (my love for them is weird I know)



28)I love mini coopers; I wish they were more practical



29)I bite my nails



30)I love spring and fall; mostly the change in seasons



31)I'm only happy when it rains... jk, but I love the rain



32)I tend to get lost in things I'm doing and forget about the passage of time; I could easily read for an entire 24 hours if something literally didn't force me out of it.

34)I almost never dream

35)Before I met Todd I had never taken a nap; now I absolutely love napping

36)I could live in a cabin if given the chance; Todd and I talk of living in a dumpy home and then having a lovely cabin somewhere.

37)I fantasize about building a home on Todd's family's' property in Swan Lake; a place where we could rock ourselves into old age atop a big wrap-around porch

38)The thought of being a mother absolutely terrifies me

39)I am incapable of watching a TV series (like Grey's, Survivor); I watch a few episodes and then lose interest. Despite this I am addicted to Man versus Wild and the Soup.

40)I think tent camping is one of the most romantic things on this planet

41)I have had the same five friends since before Kindergarten.

42)I love my lap top

43)I am grateful to have religion and spirituality in my life; I am also grateful to know the difference.

44)I had to learn the hard way that I am nothing with out my God

45)I love baking; trying new recipes are one of my favorite things to do...except when they SUCK!

46)I think bubble baths are essential to life

47)I have driven from Cedar City to Logan Utah a billion times and never realized I passed the Great Salt Lake.... I'm not kidding WOW!

48)I fully lack common sense

49)I do not have my ears pierced

50)I deeply miss my Grandma Kunz. I believe we were/are kindred spirits

51)I think humor is essential to life.

52)Sometimes I use sarcasm as a weapon.

53)I LOVE to swim...I think perhaps i was a fish in a previous life

54)I think people who discount evolution need to evolve more

55)I put Vaseline and socks on every night because I can't stand dry heels....ugh

56)I spent two weeks in Hawaii two years ago and I still miss it almost every day.

57)I need to go to Italy...SOON!

58)Traveling is a higher priority for me than many comforts in this life.

59)I envy the passion Todd has for some things in this life

60)I like hair dye...I've been every color from black to blond

61)I love Todd so much it's disgusting at times

62) I wish i was bilingual

63) Impressionistic art speaks to me

64)I had a pretty miserable high-school experience...I was cast into social roles that did not agree with me I guess.

65) I am a cusser

66) I'm a closet hopeless romantic

67) My closet is color coded

68) I want many things for my future children but the biggest would be that they feel unconditional love

69) This exercise makes me feel narcissistic

70) I'm a hazard behind the wheel. I've been in many accidents!!!

71)I learned more about addiction and about life in general in the year I worked at the Methadone clinic than in most of my life.

72)People often believe that elicit drug use is a way for people to slowly take their life; I see it as an absolute investment in survival

73)I am afraid of roller coasters

74) Whenever I take those "find your career questionnaires" they come out saying I should be a nuclear scientist...what the H?

75) Gregorian chants are fantastic

76) I miss getting lost in fiction books like I used to. I guess they lost their appeal when my reality became better than theirs'. Regardless, my love for reading transcends my love for most things

77) I believe that people who don't believe in government or taxes should fall into a large sink hole, be tortured by a breach in public security and should have to pay for all their loved one's mistakes regardless of them being subject to mental illness, disability, or work-related injury.

78) I believe that all married college students should be MANDATED to have health insurance...if ur smart enough to be in college, be married and have sex, you're smart enough to pay for your own DAMN kids' births.

79)I love playing card and board games

80)I think everyone should be required to take a class on cultural diversity...the oppression of women, ethnicity's, and LGBTQ issues

81) Living in the east has always appealed to me.

82) I was a bridezilla, but it was so worth it. My wedding was absolutely me.

83)If I were to be reincarnated i would come back as bird...so I could be anywhere and everywhere.

84) Slipper socks are essential to life

85)I still don't know my "Left" and "Right" that good...Todd jokes that he's gonna write L and and R on things.

86) I'm one of those people who would rather blow money in a bookstore than in a clothing store

87) I've always been in a hurry to get things done...don't know why. Graduated H.S. in 2003, Undergrad in 2005 and Graduate school in 2008 (hopefully)...whats wrong with me?

88)Last legislative session myself and a professor I work with got to present some research we did to the legislature. Senator Hickman was an ASS, but otherwise the experience was awesome!

89) I used to think I should have gone to law school. Then did some job shadowing...not so much!

90) I'm the black sheep of my family...they're all itty bitty, blue eyes and straight blond hair. I'm a chub, have brown eyes and have wildly curly hair. What the F!

91) I would totally love being a photographer

92) I hate people who get fake diamonds in their wedding rings. The whole purpose of a ring is for a person to show their devotion to another by saving up to buy something of VALUE. People who do that are just about image. Get over the need for a big diamond and appreciate what your spouse has to offer you. (WOW I just sounded really bitchy...sorry)

93) One thing I really value about the way Todd grew up was that he learned to appreciate the basics in life. Things had meaning. There was a purpose in what you do. No need for image and excess.

94)Utah County culture makes me want to VOMIT!

95)I love my niece Elsie. She's feisty and brilliant. I hope my kids are as cute as her!

96)I believe that people are basically good. Its contingencies that make the Hitlers in the world. We could all be a Hitler. People aren't inherently weak but things cause them to be weak.

97)I hope my kids grow up with a sense that there is good in this world.

98) I'm sorry for my ignorance

99) I'm happy to be almost done

100) That's it.